today is the first day of the rest of my life

This blog seems to be becoming a journal of my thoughts that I'm unwilling to confront in any other venue, so I guess I'll continue that theme.

To keep a long story short: I'm spiralling, and it's not sustainable. I need to make some changes, fast, or I will end up in a hole that I don't think I'll be able to dig myself out of.

I'm writing this here so I can hold myself accountable and actually do this. Maybe I'll check in at some point with an update on what I failed to do.

Here's what I need to do:

Let's see if I can do this.

The soundtrack to these words is Shortparis' single Страшно ('Scary'). It's very good, I like it a lot.